the truth is, I'm done
Intuitively Wild Weekly
WEEK OF May 18th - May 24th
— REFLECTIONS —
The truth is, I’m done.
I’m done giving my power away.
The truth is, I’ve always known how to naturally follow my intuition.
It’s what happens when I’m not thinking. When I’m simply leaning in to the natural direction of my life.
It’s what happens when I not only disconnect from the external noise, but from the internal shame of doing so.
The truth is I’m tired of the ways I’m still controlled by external conditioning. The ways in which the voice inside is still hypnotised by all the noise it’s been fed for years by others. The ways in which my body is drawn to anything outside of my own, and natures, rhythms and cycles.
That pull I feel towards my phone. That tick I get to check any social media platform during the in-between moments or when I’m bored or anxious. The fact that I work so hard to lean into my desire to be more disconnected, more present and rooted - and yet when I do, I’m immediately filled with a feeling of something being… off. That I am doing something wrong. Immediately infiltrated with anxiety stemmed from the belief that I am lazy, unproductive, not enough… (and on and on and on…)
It’s been trained into my being that if I’m not stimulated, dys-regulated and chronically multitasking, then I’m not doing enough. That there is something unsafe in that life.
When in actuality, it is the simplicity, the silence, the steady pace, that allows my greatest ideas to come, my work to feel satisfying, my days to feel truly mine.
In actuality, I don’t want to do life in the ways I’m told I should. I want to do life in the way that is mine. And I don’t know what that is without tuning into myself day by day.
— INTENTIONS —
I am making a vow to myself to honour the silence, steady pace, and presence I desire. To honour the way I want to show up for and in my life that leads to the true connection I long for.
The type of presence that leads to real alignment and authenticity.
The alignment and authenticity that can only come from slowing down and showing up.
No matter how aligned and authentic you’re trying to show up online, it impacts you. The infiltration is influencing you.
I am promising myself to hold steadfast to this devotion.
I want to own who I am.
I want to fully disconnect from any strategies, systems, beliefs or identities that society and culture have taught me.
Not to say they’re all bad, and not to fly all the way to the other end of the spectrum, but so that when I do take in the external world, it’s seen through my own perspective. Filtered and discerning. Knowing and wise. Observant and aware. Curious and cautious.
So that every automatic behaviour and belief is my own, not someone else’s. So that my unthought through response to life is from alignment and authenticity.
So that I don’t have to think about how to get back there, I’m always there.
— RITUAL —
The truth is, I’m done.
I’m done apologising for not wanting to be chronically online. For not wanting to play to the systems and structures they tell you social media requires to be successful. And immediately internalising that if I don’t do it that way, all the ways all the time, then I’m not trying hard enough. Don’t want it enough. Can’t make it happen.
The truth is - I am, I do, I can.
And so can you.
If we do it our own way.
So our ritual this week is to disconnect in the ways that we need to. To get really honest with ourselves in the ways we turn our power over to others. The ways we are automatically living in response to anything other than our true internal voice.
The possible insidious, small, easily undetected ways we are conditioned by society and controlled by other’s voices.
Pay attention, get honest, get curious.
And then - choose at least one action you are going to do to honour what that voice needs. To honour the life you truly desire. This will be individual to each person.
For me, it’s prioritising silence, simplicity, and presence.
Some tangible examples -
writing before I go on social media
no longer listening to podcasts when walking, getting ready for the day, or in the in-between moments
only going on any social media platform with intention and presence, not to scroll, not to seek advice, not to disconnect or disempower
looking at social media when I am feeling rooted and connected to my own voice and perspective
observing why I am turning to my phone and finding other ways to fill that hole. Anxious? Breath, step outside. Lonely? Text a friend. Looking for an idea? Start journaling.
Get curious, get honest, make a change.
It’s time to make changes.
Because the truth is, I’m done.
this week at Intuitively Wild we’ve been showing up for and getting back to ourselves…
Monday’s musings - mental health…. but make it ritual
Wednesday’s podcast - mental health… but make it ritual
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this weeks podcast…
“if I don't let myself be vulnerable, I am directly leading myself back into mental health struggles… opening up and reaching out for support, talking to people, sharing what I was going through, sharing about my mess both in therapeutic ways, in private situations and in the ways I have publicly, is what has saved my life…”
welcome to this months ritual and ceremony episode.
today is a very special episode because it is in honour of mental health awareness month and we are joined by a very special repeat guest, Rachel's mom.
Melissa is not only Rachel's mom but she is also a psychotherapist with her own private practice and years of study and experience.
the two of them go into a vulnerable and insightful conversation about their own mental health journeys, tips on how others can support themselves, and how to support others.
Some of the questions they go into...
what has your journey with your mental health or self acceptance in general taught you about yourself?
what has it helped you appreciate about yourself?
what challenges or moments of tension has it brought?
what gratitude does reflecting on this journey bring you?
what needs to be released and forgiven?
what are your intentions for moving forward?
...and so much more ...
listen on apple, spotify, youtube, or wherever you like to listen to your podcasts…
I urge you to open up to at least one person this week about something that has been previously difficult for you to express. Find someone you feel has the capacity and heart to hear and see you, and share.
And, I urge you to create that space for someone else in your life to open up to you in the same way.
It’s time we normalised these conversations. And if you’re looking for someone to open up to, I’d love to connect with you. I promise it’s worth putting yourself out there.
Until next time, stay intuitively wild 🌙
xx,
~ Rachel
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